I want his hug not your hug

Dear Mr. Cloud,

Today was okay. Michelle was the big leader, ha ha. I started my day off as a loser. Also,Today was cold, so cold and when he's not around it's like I'm stuck in an ice burg. All these guys always giving me these big hugs but I don't want them I don't want any of them. I want a hug from him and only him. My heart, it will be throwing a parade if it was from him, beating so fast that he can feel it if he hugs me tight enough. He would make me really happy if he would give me one hug, but then what "Tree" said won't get out of my head. It's stuck and every time I think of "Shrub" I think of what "Tree" said and babe it hurts, hurts so much I can't stop crying from the pain. I wish I can be stronger, I wish everyone weren't so sad, I wish to trade their pain for anything else of mine, I wish everything can just be put on me sometimes. I just hate seeing how everyone is sad. I rather be sad then to see them sad. Any ways, please don't tell "Shrub" whom I like. Telling him is like my most biggest fear. I want to build I friendship right now and I don't want anything to take that away. Well, yeah nothing much. If there is something I'll come back and write. I doubt that though, good bye. (: